Sometimes

Sometimes I wonder what she hides beneath her eyes. Lies disguised in smiles but her insides really cry? Or is the truth just covered by her lucious hazel eyes. Was I worth anything? Did you want us to die? But then sometimes I think Im the blame for the pain, But shes the reason I knotted with heroin and cocaine, Shes the reason this mind went strung out insane. Sometimes she has me think sex is just a game, Like she loved me she loved him just the same, Now she put a minefield in the midst of my brain. But there is always the man who seeds the baby in the mother, But the sacraments such stress its relieved with another, Now his baby boy has a new half brother. But thats not my business its just a common factor, Here in America reproduction could be a fracture. Sometimes I feel the sun wont shine on me, Its just a non stop thunderstorm raging inside of me, Nothing but a dud in a dingey lost out in the sea, Or like im sugar fitting in with unsweetened tea, Or too much liquor flipping inside of me, But theres still the jump to oppurtunity, Then sometimes its all let out on looseleaf. Sometimes I stem the leaves all the way to there roots, Way past the point before it went cahoots, Even passed the time I sat in moms belly bored, Before I saw life before I was brought to shore, Was there ever a moment the rich werent better than the poor? Was there ever a difference between a woman and a Whore? Besides one on the corner the other name brand stores? You see sometimes people talk to pat themselves on the back, In carried out conversations common sense is whats lacked, But they go on like they just killed the rest of the crack, More tangents than a timeline the sense is not coming back, How many days have you been up? you should really hit the sack. Sometimes a scapegoat is a mans best friend, But I’ll keep my loyalty it will stay with me till the end, One moral I’d never break or bend, I wont cooporate cause they’re system I dont comprehend, Its nothing but a zoo it fails its amends, The man in the badge will never be your friend . So this knowledge I know with them Ill never share, its all in my head but to them its thin air. Sometimes a judge remands a rehab, Better than the prision so the suspect is glad. But on release date its right back to the streets, paranoia that makes you toss and turn under sheets. The detox is now over now return to the world, The drugs heal the sober once they puzzle with that girl, So now her memory is nothing but body highs and intense colour swirls.